#star's ramblings

[catnap-design-drafts]

I'm not dead! Yall, I'm ngl Butterscotch took so long compared to all the cats. Why dogs gotta be built like that. Can't make something vaguely dog shaped and say 'yeah good enough' because then it doesn't look right. Why can't dogs occasionally liquefy like cats do.

[wisheduponastar]

for some reason whenever I see snippets of people's works my brain always seems to have some little goblin/wip-dragon thing going on.

I look at the words in awe, and then revel in the fact they come from secrets only I and a few more people are privy too. like I've wandered into some secret library or something.

no, brain, these are publicly available snippets. I haven't found a new Library of Alexandria. (although to be fair, with some of the writers I follow - I say my reaction to wonderful creation is entirely valid)

[starvoidsailor]

One of my favorite past times I like to do is assigning people and characters quotes that sound like they could've said them but are from absolutely different media types, bonus points if the quote is made funnier by assigned person.

The wildest one I made, that a friend believed was an actual line in-game, was a barbie movie quote I assigned to Gaius

[crystal-mouse]

happy last same year as it was yesterday 2024 tuesday

todays the only/last day you can reblog this lol

[thestarsarefading]

Who am I...

24/2/2025

Sometimes it's weird to write an ~introduction~ post because I don't feel like I know myself! I think I'm always learning who I am and meeting myself... but sometimes I wish I had more of a sense of self! It's really easy to believe people when they say things that are unkind about me because I don't have a solid foundation of personhood to fall back on. What I want to believe is "Star is a good person" and "Star wants the best for everyone" but sometimes I worry those things aren't true. But if I say them enough and work towards them, I can make them true! But what if I still don't believe?

I feel like I keep apologizing to my past self for the things I'm doing to my present self.

[goldensunset]

[sadmages]

Having ocs is fucked up they make you wake up and think stuff like what if i learn to code in renpy and make this into a visual novel. Who said that

[xxxball-fondlerxxx]

as an asexual who likes to imagine sex but doesnt actually like having sex, sometimes it just feels like sex isnt real but i wish it was. and post

[nugulover69]

Can you talk to men in a non-sexually charged way for a single second

[foreststarflaime]

Sure sure romantic pairings are fine and all. But more people should perhaps consider two characters loving each other to the point of incomprehensibility. To the point that there is no simpler way in english to define or describe it than just to say those characters’ names together, joined eternally by the vague conjunction ‘and’. There’s so many types of love and dependencies and emotions in general thrown in there that you can’t tell what colors they are anymore, they’ve just joined into a giant blobby mess that’s almost black, but when you look closer glistens with more colors than there are names for. Just a thought

[wisheduponastar]

Random question of the day: What's one thing you've learned from a mutual that you never thought you would learn?

hmmm...

that chilli and cornbread is a thing. It sounds great though. Much better than what Britain has.

As for something practical? Sometimes poro's shark facts will sneakily be put into my probably never-to-be-written nevermoor mermaid au.

[bluemoonscape]

Big fan of characters who “kill” their younger selves. Characters who resent the past version of themselves for letting them get hurt, who look at that kid and feel revolted by the foreignness of it. Characters who feel they have to cut the child out of them like a tumor because it’s hurting them too much and if I don’t kill you you’ll kill me. Nearly nothing remaining of that past self but for the little connections and mannerisms they can’t kick, and when it shines through, it’s a terrible, tragic thing, because the child is still in there. It’s in there and it’s grotesque in its suffocation. But it’s there.

[ilovedthestars]

there really are few emotions i find more compelling in a story than "you should be afraid of me. please don't be afraid of me"

[foldingfittedsheets]

One time I was ringing up this sweet older gentleman at the sex shop. I no longer remember what he was buying, just that he was in his fifties and radiated a bumbling gentleness that I had enjoyed.

He was chatting with me as he pulled out cash to pay, “You know, I always thought it would be so much easier to meet ladies. But then you meet a girl and you start chatting and they’re never as impressed that I know Captain Kirk’s middle name as I expected them to be.”

I took his payment with a grin and said, “I dunno, Tiberius is an amazing middle name, it was their loss.”

He looked at me with utter awe, radiating a disbelieving joy that I’d parried his quip so effortlessly with Trekkie lore. “If I were thirty years younger…” he’d said, absolutely delighted.

I didn’t have the heart to tell him I was gay to boot, so I just beamed and wished him a good day. He went out the door with a spring in his step and I still smile to think about it.

[egonkula]

aos if it fuckin rocked hard